This travel, not only physical but also of research, starts today Friday 7th August 2015 with my resignation letter that I’ve been thinking about since long time. The reasons behing this decision are various and I want to fix them here in order to remember them in the moments of doubts and uncertaintly that I will face and that will make me sway along the way.
My job has been giving me a financial security and many exciting experiences, but inside me the need of pursuit something different, to give it a try to follow my feeling and pursuit my dreams would not fall silent. Within these dreams the desire to do something more: the pursuit and ultimate target to be part of a project and a job to make this world more clean and fair, to help the poor and oppressed or improve the environment and be active part of the green revolution that need to happen to reduce the human footprint on earth.
As any dreams and ultimate target it can be achieved only through steps and the first one had to be a life change to stop the spiral of events in which my life ended up. The plan is to dedicate this year to myself thought the pursuit of the Life bucket list that I wrote few years ago. Since then few items has been ticked off, like “Learning to Jump” or “Run a Marathon”, but some new have been added and some are waiting to be be satisfied.
Doubts?
Many as you can imagine. The logic is pulling on one side, but the feeling is telling me that the decision taken is right and few signs also confirmed to carry on. Those who read and believe in the “The small prince” will remember and understand the following quote:
“And now here is my secret, a very simple secret: It is only with the heart that one can see rightly;
what is essential is invisible to the eye.”
Let’s give it a try!
Fear?
I am for sure afraid! Any change generate a mix of discomfort, adrenaline and fear. You just have to decide which one is made for you and you want to choose.
Carry on with the everyday life of before would have been easy and comfortable, thinking to it even now gives a certain feeling of relief and easiness. Despite that I choose for the most difficult way, but without risks there is no reward and I believe that “life begins where the comfort zone ends”.
The fear of the unknown? Not really, indeed this is balance well by the adrenaline of adventure and the craving of exploration.
The main fear is the risk not to get the best out of this year: make a step change, evolve and achieve something special and great at least for me.
I reject the idea to be driven by Fear in my decisions and I believe that the biggest failure would be not neither give it a try!
So let’s try it and be driven by the feeling and the signs,
by the wave of destiny and what it brings to me!
